Team Members
Tyler Ninomura – Script, storyboard, camera operator, editor, contractor
Jaymi Matsudaira – Actor, location leaser
Artist Statement
Abstract
A black-and-white short video that uses split screens to focus on different views of the human body from conflicting perspectives in order to critique the struggles one must ordeal to achieve society’s image of the perfect person, namely, that one must destroy themselves and give up their individuality in order to try and find acceptance, and the overall failure of this notion.
A black-and-white short video that uses simple shots of a girl and her stuffed bunny and variations of light and shadow to portray the struggle, and failure, of growing up and “throwing everything away” in the name of social acceptance, as well as critiquing our reliance on our past memories to guide us in our time of need.
Description
This video tries to tell the story of a girl who in her childhood was happy, but when the burdens of school and work came crashing down on her, she found her childhood, personified in the stuffed bunny, snatched away from her. As she continues on in her life, she finds that the world becomes grayer and begins to blend together, as being covered by a fog of monotony. However, the thought and remembrance of her childhood helps her to lift the fog that had settled on her life, and allowed her to regain that same innocent happiness she had as a child. However, because she has grown up, she is no longer the same person she was when she was a child; her image, persona, identity…all have changed. While she can safely reminisce on her past, doing so offers something dark and depression; rather than building new structures, she is reinventing her past as her sole comfort.
Meaning
This video attempts to illustrate the problems with trying to conform to a social identity by discarding your past. Earlier in my life, I had tried to force away my past and, essentially, who I was, in order to try and find a place where I could find some sort of widespread acceptance. However, doing so isolated me, and I ended up just feeling more distant than before. I feel that each person comes to this realization at some point in their life, often through reminiscing on their childhood years, and helps them out of their depression by recapturing that essence. However, we also can easily rely on this sense of safety too much; the more we become attached to these memories, the further we separate ourselves from society and allow our psychosis to grow.
References
Tyler the Creator – Yonkers
This black-and-white rap music video helped to show me the power such simple contrasts can be. I was also really influenced by the ever-changing aperture changes and how those seemed to make the video that much more surreal; by making the rapper fade in and out of the image, the video super- and de-emphasized him, in the same vein as people accept him as a rapper, celebrity, etc.
Tom Morello
Although not directly related to video, Tom Morello’s innovative style and process of creating and manipulating music influenced my idea to use different textures and materials to create certain visual effects i.e. ziplock bags to create a more blurred, rounded surface.
Script (rough drafts)
Scene 1
Medium shot focusing on actor, as they worriedly look left and right.
Slowly zoom out as actor starts to reach out and call for other people. They are ignored. They eventually give up and let their arms fall to their sides and their head falls as they crumple back against the wall and slowly sit down, looking defeated.
Zoom back in on the face and overlay with the next scene.
Scene 2
Left Screen:
From complete darkness, increase the light and zoom in on their closed eye.
After awhile, the eye opens in slow motion. As the eye opens, overlay the scene with a slow motion image of a fluorescent light bulb turning on.
Right Screen:
Mirroring the above image in reverse so that the light fades to the image of the eye closing into darkness.
Scene 3
Left Screen:
Focus on the right hand holding a razor blade, shining and reflecting in the light. Slowly zoom in on the razor blade as it starts to move up and across the body in slow motion.
Right Screen:
Close up on closed left hand, with “L O V E” written across their fingers. The hand slowly opens to reveal dirt. As the dirt begins to fall, the camera trails its motion towards the ground.
Scene 4
Left Screen:
Close up on a hand holding a flower, the center of the flower filled with liquid. The razor blade from the previous scene begins to cut into the flower petals. As it does, the camera follows the liquid in the center as it begins to leak into the palm and down towards the ground.
Right Screen:
Medium shot of actor giving away clothing items. Pan down towards the ground and focus on the actor’s shadow.
Scene 5
Left Screen:
Close up of right half of mouth. It opens and actor begins coughing.
Right Screen:
Close up of left half of mouth. It opens and actor begins smoking.
Scene 6
Medium shot focusing on actor, as they confidently stride into the room. They glance around smugly, hoping their new look will attract attention, but they become distressed when they continue to be ignored. They worriedly look left and right.
Slowly zoom out as actor starts to reach out and call for other people. They are ignored. They eventually give up and let their arms fall to their sides and their head falls as they crumple back against the wall and slowly sit down, looking defeated.
Scene 1
Medium shot focusing on actor, as they worriedly look left and right.
Slowly zoom out as actor starts to reach out for reflection in mirror.
Scene 2
Medium shot as the actor eventually gives up and lets their arms fall to their sides and their head fall as they crumple back against the wall and slowly sit down in the fetal position, looking defeated. Widen aperture so that the actor fades into the wall.
Scene 3
Long shot of the Quad. Zoom into actor and narrow aperture as they begin to descend the stairs.
Scene 4
Actor walks on the path until they notice a flower lying on the ground. Narrow aperture so the focus is on the flower. Zoom in for a medium shot as the actor bends over to pick it up.
Scene 5
Close up on hand picking up the flower.
Scene 6
Close up on hand holding the flower as the actor gets stands back up. Actor gently holds flower.
Zoom out to a medium shot of the actor, narrowing the focus on another person in the background. Background person bumps into actor in slow motion. Actor shows surprise and starts to fall over.
Scene 7
Camera falls as the actor falls. Should be a fairly shaky motion (like the camera is trying to rebalance itself).
Scene 8
Left Screen:
Close up on flower, tilt camera at a 120° angle. Narrow and widen aperture to focus in and out on the flower, now crushed under the palm of the actor’s hand and spilling liquid.
Right Screen:
Medium shot of the actor to include the waist up until the hand. Tilt camera at a 120° angle. Narrow and widen aperture to focus in and out on the actor, who is now lying motionless on the ground. People are crowding around her, with their “death” finally bringing some sense of belonging.
Script (final)
Scene 1
Medium shot focusing on actor, as they clutch their favorite stuffed animal. They continue to play around with it as the camera circles from left to right. Once the camera reaches as far right as possible, fade to darkness.
Scene 2
Cut from black and fade into the same scene, but this time the girl is holding a stack of homework and a pen. She looks around for the familiar face of her stuffed animal, but gives up after awhile. She reluctantly beings to scribble on her homework before throwing everything in the air, dropping her head in despair.
Scene 3
The girl now sits at her computer, working on a paper. She types away monotonously.
Scene 4
Same scene, but this time obscured by a plastic bag and unfocusing on the girl.
Scene 5
Same scene again, but this time, the image is almost completely obscured by bags and totally unfocused. It’s difficult to make out the girl’s silhouette as she throws her hands in the air in disgust.
Scene 6
Zoom out from a close shot of the girl’s head, whose look of disgust changes to glee as she turns her head and sees her stuffed animal next to her. She smiles and reaches out for it, embracing it like she did in Scene 1.
Characters
Main
Physical representation of the angst of growing up/adapting to new environments
Desperate to find something to hold onto
Starts as a “child” as they become engrossed in their adult life
Freedom = Rediscovering their childhood
Storyboard






Shoot Specifics
Only one day to finish shooting
Try to s Shoot as many all scenes within the building
Shoot in the late afternoon in order to try and find a balance between natural and artificial light; acts as blend between child (natural) and adult (artificial)
Very restricted budget; cover cost of actor with small gift under $10.00 (e.g., custom-made card)
Release Forms

